Sunday, November 19, 2006
Open
For those of you who know me, you’d know that I was in an unhappy marriage when I met Fian. Well, this week I officially got divorced. I originally drafted this blog with a whole lot of ancient history about the wrongs of our relationship, the horrible things my ex did, my faults in the marriage and the absolutely crap sex life. But I have cut and deleted most of that - all that remains is the final paragraphs. This I think is what is important and relevant. I conducted the archeological dig on the ancient ruins and found these treasures of truth that can help in the future. After all, isn't that what history is about? To look back and learn the lessons to carry through into the future?
So here are the final paragraphs of the orginal post I spent two days writing.
I didn’t know how to let myself be loved. Didn’t feel worthy to be loved, didn’t like myself, let alone my husband. How could my heart survive when it didn’t really know what it was to be loved by the most important person – me?
How can we truly allow ourselves to be loved?
To do this you need to have an open heart, a loving heart. Be open to love and self acceptance. A healthy loving heart allows your spirit to revel in physical pleasures without the repercussions of guilt, or recrimination. When the heart is open to love it is open to receive blessings of the spirit as well as the blessing of finding someone who is open to loving you.
Fian and I have open hearts. We are open to the blessings that life brings us - receptive to the true love we have for each other, open to exploring what physical pleasures make us feel joyful, accepting of the new situations we find ourselves in and reveling in our roles with Dom/sub.
Open your hearts, look in the mirror with love, revel in the pleasure of the flesh, nourish your spirit with acceptance of your enjoyment, not guilt. You are all wonderful, worthy people who deserve to be loved.
So here are the final paragraphs of the orginal post I spent two days writing.
I didn’t know how to let myself be loved. Didn’t feel worthy to be loved, didn’t like myself, let alone my husband. How could my heart survive when it didn’t really know what it was to be loved by the most important person – me?
How can we truly allow ourselves to be loved?
To do this you need to have an open heart, a loving heart. Be open to love and self acceptance. A healthy loving heart allows your spirit to revel in physical pleasures without the repercussions of guilt, or recrimination. When the heart is open to love it is open to receive blessings of the spirit as well as the blessing of finding someone who is open to loving you.
Fian and I have open hearts. We are open to the blessings that life brings us - receptive to the true love we have for each other, open to exploring what physical pleasures make us feel joyful, accepting of the new situations we find ourselves in and reveling in our roles with Dom/sub.
Open your hearts, look in the mirror with love, revel in the pleasure of the flesh, nourish your spirit with acceptance of your enjoyment, not guilt. You are all wonderful, worthy people who deserve to be loved.
Friday, November 03, 2006
Keeping Nice
Well, another long time between posts. What I have discovered is that although on the surface Fian and I cope really well with the stress from our ex's and all that stuff, it exhausts us. We are tired and use all our energy on each other and the kids so the blogs suffer.
Just thought I'd let you know.
Just thought I'd let you know.
